Thursday, January 27, 2005

What ever do I wear?

I'm meeting my boyfriends parents this weekend for the first time. We've been dating since the end of August, and he met my wacky family over the holidays. I'm more in need of my family's approval or interest in my life than he is with his, which is why I'm meeting his three months later. Not that I'm keeping track. My sister and I are pretty close (she calls, vents to me about stuff, I listen happy I don't have five kids that sap my energy and money), and as much as she needs to accomplish things, I think she secretly likes the fact I stand by my convictions of not complicating my life and living for me. Plus, I watch my nieces and nephews often, including once a year for a whole week or so when my sister and brother-in-law go on a cruise to keep their sanity. Back to the parent meet 'n' greet. I was looking in the mirror the other night, playing around with my hair Cyndi Lauper 80's style and told Bob I was going to wear it like that when I met his parents. He actually had to ask me if I was serious, adding with a laugh, "With you I never know what you'll do". A disgustingly, 'awwww' moment for me, but wow...... He apparently likes these things about me.....

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Spank me.

This sucks. Sure, I'm thankful to be alive, healthy, blah, blah, but, today I turned 32 and I feel I am not living up to my potenial, or sharing enough of my intellect with the world. I'm not sure what the solution is, but it is something I am giving thought to again, after about a ten-year respite. Of course, in my mind, I should have it figured out by the end of the day, ignoring the fact it's taken me 32 years to still not know...
I share my birthday with cool music notables such as Slim Harpo, Naomi Judd, and Vicki Peterson, so....well, nothing really, I just thought that was cool. I'm not bummed out about my seemingly unused potential, more angry and pissed. Fortunately, those elements kick my ass into gear rather than defeat my psyche... I always thought how lucky people are who know exactly what they want to do in life, but, despite not having found my 'calling', I am glad that I have many varied interests and strengths. Word.